From The Catacombs

A Letter From the Ancestors

We made it to Saturday, Congregation!

Welcome to the brunch-timed newsletter of the day! This lil essay is a love letter from me and the Ancestors. Wherever you are, you can begin connecting to your folks.

Instead of musing on any of my own existential concerns, I want to look at more practical information. Why are you coming to God? Why might you be avoiding them? For the purposes of this read let’s conceive of Divinity not as singular being but as relationship, roads, your own self, and then lastly as externalized things. Repulsion and attraction exist on the same axis. As humans we are full of contradiction, compound feelings, desires, concerns, etc. and these internal conversations are participating in our life whether or not we are facing them.

A phrase I’ve been using a lot in my writing lately is “internal conflict.” For me this comes from a conversation with my love several years ago. He was telling me about a gentleman who had eliminated feelings of internal conflict or internal dissonance and disagreement, a fluid and working self knowledge reigning, and this making the man’s manifestation work so smooth it was scary. I can only offer that poor paraphrasing at the moment. That’s okay, it has the sort of “telephone” game vibe that so many devotional stories stand on. A little mystery is good for the soul! Lack of internal conflict became a personal key, a meditation. I’ve mentioned before my similar feelings about “long game,” and “steadfast,” about using your personal relationship and knowledge to make a working key. Eliminating inner conflict is an avenue of self refinement, and of mystical relationship if you allow it to be. So why do these two topics, relationship and inner conflict, matter to one another? Cause and effect. While I’m fresh out of perfectly replicable experiences, I want to offer the idea that our spirit and our experience of life are in one giant conversation that in some ways predate us and will posthumously continue, and this conversation is comprised of conscious, subconscious, and unconscious communications. Relationship with self allows you to identify inner conflicts, and those conflicts may in turn make you aware of possible choices, wounds, solutions. These things woven together can help you in life regardless of spiritual involvement. With the most aligned spiritual practice, this system of knowing the self becomes a much deeper and more interactive situation that can inspire and facilitate lineage and community care.